okay we are better

here some photos enjoy looking at my girls lol

anyways update i talk to justin and we are better.. i thought he was going to stay mad that i deleted his WoW again but he wasnt. I just knew that his friend derreck is a big wow fanatic and everyone looks at me like the evil person who always keeps justin off it. ugh whatever!!!!!!! anyways im in a totally better mood! my parents might be closing in on a deal for this house about 15 miles from us :) sweet! lol.. my friend ashley just moved back from oklahoma so we need to spend some time together! lol so if my parents move out soon then my girls can have their own rooms for once! its been what almost 2 years since they been able to! maybe more? i cant wait to start piecing things together.. there is a lot i need to do with my place.. i need to make it my OWN again! sigh i cant wait. my work is good! I been training alot in the NICU which i really like it! It can be very sad and heartbreaking though :( those little kiddos are tough cookies!! Justin is going to go back to school soon and im going to apply to KU and take some classes at JCCC towards my BS i am waiting at least six months so i can qualify for a tuition re imbursment program at my job.. so far i been there about 3 1/2 months :) i still want to go back for my PA but i told myself i will get it done by the time im 30 lol.. i think there is just alot more important things in my life right now then worrying about burying my head in books and stressing over that. id rather be a "wife" and mom to my family. :) love life! anyways halloween is coming up i asked for that off so hopefully they give it to me he he cant wait!
have a nice week every one

sometimes we just cant cant get along :(

Me and Justin always get into it about money I hate it. I just dont understand why he likes to act like he doesnt care. He asked me yesterday if we could cook out for labor day. I said yay thats fine but i planned to only spend a little bit of money. I didnt give him a set amount. Well he spent over 100.00 which pissed me off.. seriously we could have just went out to eat for cheaper. I hate that he does that shit all the freaking time. So he cut into our car payment and that made me even madder because the car payment was suppose to be paid last friday and did he care to do it? NO.. i was so mad. I un installed his WoW again. and changed my account password so he cant re install it. Seriously if he doesnt give a flip about our bills then he needs to stay off my computer.. im the one who paid all our bills this time.. and all he had to do was make sure my car was paid.. no he didnt.. he rather spend worthless amounts of money on unhealthy hotdogs. chips and paid.. seriously.. id ont even know how you can spend that amount of money.. i always tend to budget and his bad spending habits are getting to me.. sigh.. i hate feeling short on cash.. seems like we always do.. i wouldnt have spent 30.00 yesterday let i know he spent 100.00 the other day. :( sigh seriously somebody shoot me already!

changes in our lives

So I been talking with Justin alot about what he wants to do with his life.. Anyways he is always unsure.. He was going to try police academy but that wasnt so grand.. then he was going to try auto mechanic but honestly he makes more money now then if he was to do that. Fire fighter (his friend derreck trying to convince him) his friend derrick finshed Firefighting school and still is having trouble finding a job anyways.. its tough for him to figure it out. I always mentioned the railroads.. PPL make pretty good salaries with the railroads so i always keep that in my mind.. so we looked more into it yesterday and its something he wants to do definately.. if he gets into it sometime next year and finished the curriculum.. which its really a fast pace curriculum he could get a job offer in another state.. which i wouldnt mind moving to a different state at all..nice change of scenery for once.. for all this isnt set in stone and who knows things could change im really looking forward to him changing his career path. The entry pay is really good.. more then what i was hoping for so the move would definately make it worth it.. hopefully he gets in! and finds something :) the pay is all out of pocket though not covered by financial aid but i think its worth it..

Celeste birthday

So Celeste birthday was this past weekend.. she had a blast :) we invited a lot of children and friends.. she got a good share of presents she was happy.. i thiink she was mainly thrilled that lauren gave her some mula.. she seemed to be more wired about that then anything else it was too cute! so overall the day was good! spent toomuch $$ on the party of course :(. Our neighbor kid was very rowdy he was getting on EVERYONES nerves lol... ugh i had to get after him several times! anyways here is a few pics

getting cailyn ready for pinyata



the pinyata was very scary for me lol



her new guitar! its real!
you can see justin playing on Wow >:(


anyways ill share more later!

sometimes i cant help but break down and cry

GoOd MoRnINg

"Its good morning time!" thats cailyns phrase to make sure we wake up with her in the morning. Its always "mommy! daddy! its good morning time!" LoL she picked up that phrase because everymorning Justin would softly say good morning and tickle the girls a bit to wake them up for the morning and get the day going :) Now she has this eternal alarm clock to still wake up at 6:30am! every morning. Its all good though because she is getting a little better to want to just chill out on the bed. She also likes the "wakey wakey" phrase off of Mcdonalds. Justin would say "wakey wakey" to her in the morning and she reply "bud a buh buh buh" or however they tend to spell that lol. Celeste and Cailyn are both playing my little ponies in the living room. It feels good to see them playing together. My sister Sabra (celestes companion) went to stay with her grandma for the summer. At first Celeste was devastated I felt horrible for her. She has such seperation issues, but i have no choice but to be firm with her or she will always think its okay to flip out if someone is leaving the house and she cant come along. Celeste is over being lonely for Sabra though (at least that is what shows) But before Sabra left Celeste never showed much love for Cailyn and I didnt know how to 'make' someone love someone. You know Celeste always shoved Cailyn out of the rooms or close the doors on her so she couldnt play. It furiated me! It was a nonstop battle but cailyn learned how to just play with mommy or play by herself my little pony style. But now they play together :) It really does feel good to see that! The girls love Leo too. Im glad we got him. Although he is still a pup and alot of work, I think its worth it. He chewed a few of justins things oooops! :o lol Justin isnt much of a pet person. But Leo is growing on him. Leo likes to chew though. He always try to chew on me! ahhh but i been teaching him not too so he doing ALOT better. My stepdad should be getting out the beginning of august. count down on lol.. I also started to read. right now im just reading a book my sister owns. Stop Laughing at Me. by jodee blanco its kind of based on the dave pelzer novels. Its about a girl who overcame school bullying. Its sad, I was always the odd ball kid. I was so awkward in highschool and to have a baby at 16 made me so much wierder then before lol. I never talked to anyone. I still dont like talking too much. Im always afraid i will sound dumb. Thats why i always have random thoughts in my head lol.. neways just sitting here listen to hank williams :) gotta love him. I better go and start some lo-ndry
until next time!

update

so life has moved just a wee bit fast since the last time i posted in here. Well lets see I graduated School middle of May and started my job a week later. I been working at University of Kansas Hospital. Its a pretty big hospital. Many ICUs to work in pretty big. At first its very intimidating because so much goes on there. But im getting the swing of things. Im still orientating so im not quiet alone yet, I work nights too and that was some getting use to but its alright. I dont mind the nights so far. I passed all my Boards and Registries. I didnt even realized i signed up for my hardes test the clinic simulations on June Friday the 13th! lol but i passed ;) kinda funny though. If i noticed that before i would have hesitated on that day lol I just wanted to get my boards done and now they are finished. Right now im studying ACLS course. Thats the certificate we need in order to help run code blues and rapid responses in the hospital :). other than that The girls are great :) they been enjoying the summer and schwemming in the back yard. We have a new member of the family too. Leo our mini dachsund :) ehh im kinda lazy and dont want to right more so chow!