today

just downed a big bowl of life cereal ugh. lol.. .now im going to school to study for the clinical sims yay! anyways sounds like an awesome weekend for me! me and just went on a 6 mile path yesterday evening.. he never comes with me so i thought that was nice of him he did today lol.. i jogged 4 miles and walked the 2 miles but he rode a bike most of the way.. he would have jogged but he almost broke his knee at work.. he fell off a lift gate.. so now he promises we will work out together and get inshape together we shall see how that goes! lol.. neways im off ttyl!

what a hellish week

this was a long and horrible long week.. we had test after test, final after final. I felt like it was never going to end. I been spending alot of my free time at school away from home. I had to practice taking my Boards we took a mock board today. It was equivalent to the National Board Written Registry exam. Then Tuesday we have to take Clinical Simulation exam. They are tough so i just been taking practice tests all the time lately. We have to pass these in order to graduate and be done! The girls are good putting up with me. Celeste has been loving the weather. She loves to ride her bike to the park but then she gets really whiney and that drives me nutty! cailyn is always a good sport :) We went to the mall yesterday and i bought my dress for graduation :) other then that i want to eat with justin and i plan to practice my clinic sims all weekend!

Annabell's song

i love these lyrics.. they just remind me so much of my girls

Annabell's song by everclear

I See you roll your eyes
You know it makes me smile
You are like the sun to me
Bright as liquid fire
I feel so powerless
Hold you up above the world
You are quite a lot of trouble
Such a pretty little girl ...
such a pretty little girl
I know I'm never home
I'm always miles and miles away
I feel I'm runnin' out of time
Say the things I need to say
Call you on the phone
You will not talk to me
Yeah you just don't understand
You are my everything

Anna, Anna
Tell me what you want
Tell me what you need
Anna, AnnaYou are never alone...
You are never alone.

I like to watch you play
When you don't know I'm there
See you in your sleep at night
Reach out and touch your hairI
wanna make this world
Be just how you want it to be
Yeah you just don't understand
You are everything to me

so on with the show

Enjoy the pics of my girls :)


What i would give to have the innocence of a child. So angelic, uncorrupted, blameless, faultless, guiltless, harmless. To be a child again. What a bargain it would be to re live just one day.

well nothing new.. another day another day.. yesterday we had a huge t-storm that scared the bejeebies out of me.. i felt bad for my girls..They were freaked out and cried alot :( It broke my heart to see them so sad but I kept them comforted through the evening. So anyways after the tornado warnings were over we hit the hay. I woke up at 1:30 am last night to loud winds. Justin and I looked at eachother, hopped out of bed and grabbed the girls. We all went down to the basement. There was no tornado though, thank goodness. So we went back to sleep, but we were pretty shaken up. The winds were powerful, very powerful. they went up to 80 mph in some areas.. When i woke up this morning i found my tree snapped in half :( such a beautiful tree too. The other day after my jog I was walking by it thinking to myself, "damn that tree is going to make my yard all white with those petals." lol... ironic eh? well i think so. So anyways this is the tree now

Its amazing how mother nature works. The way i was monitoring the clouds, the winds, and the circulation I am far suprised that a tornado did not hit close to us. I wouldnt be suprised if one did. Mother nature has been showing no mercy to us humans lately. Its like a downward spiral. May seems to be the worst month for tornado action and t-storm warnings. I just worry about all the people who do not have basements and live in trailer parks. I just dont see enough tornado shelters in kansas like i did in oklahoma.. So as my day progressed I went to class and studied.. studied .. and studied... someone brought cake.. great lol.. i came home.. i need to wrap up my invites for my graduation. i hope things get better for my family.. i hate living like this :( i went get into detail but things are so tough lately for us. thats all i can say for now :)

Im almost out of the water :)

Today was my last day of clinical rotations at hospitals.. I had so much relief inside knowing that school is coming to an end.. It has to be one of my most hectic year to this date. What a year. It went by so fast but then again so slow. I know so many people can relate to me who had to deal with the same situation.. to be committed to what seems like a fulltime job with no pay.. and on top of this "job" you have to be on top of studying remembering material and getting decent grades. It is exhausting. I know my family is super excited that I will be finished. Then on the 19th i start my first real job yippee :) im going fulltime nights which is some adjusting too but im glad that i can finally really provide for my girls :) well i am going to pick up my celeste from kindergarten so i shall be back later..